Chapter V.—Clement’s Affection for Peter.

Then I answered:  “Think not, my lord, that I suffer these things unreasonably; but there is a certain cause and reason of this affection of mine towards you.  For I have you alone as the object of all my affections, instead of father and mother, and brethren; but above all this, is the fact that you alone are the cause of my salvation and knowledge of the truth.  And also this I do not count of least moment, that my youthful age is subject to the snares of lusts; and I am afraid to be without you, by whose sole presence all effeminacy, however irrational it be, is put to shame; although I trust, by the mercy of God, p. 158 that even my mind, from what it has conceived through your instruction, shall be unable to receive aught else into its thoughts.  Besides, I remember your saying at Cæsarea, ‘If any one wishes to accompany me, without violating dutifulness, let him accompany me.’  And by this you meant that he should not make any one sad, to whom he ought according to God’s appointment to cleave; for example, that he should not leave a faithful wife, or parents, or the like.  Now from these I am entirely free, and so I am fit for following you; and I wish you would grant me that I might perform to you the service of a servant.”